Thursday, February 2, 2012

See that wagon? It's empty.

SO. I am on day 4 of my juice fast and I fell off the wagon. haha. I decided I was strong enough today to make TJ's work lunch...and it ended in me being taken down by a turkey sandwich. Here's the thing though...I don't feel bad, or even feel like I failed. I decided yesterday that for now, a juice fast is not for me. Not because it's too hard, mind you, but because it quickly changed mentally from me doing it for health reasons, to being more focused on the weight that was dropping off so quickly. I've been down that road before. MANY times. I spent the whole last year changing the way I think about food, and focusing on the other effects it has on my body, not just weight. And in 3 days of doing the juice fast, my brain was headed right back to all those unhealthy places. The excitement of losing weight so fast, the worry of it coming back just as quickly, wondering how much I'd lose if I walked a few miles on the treadmill too. As exciting as it is to lose 9lbs in 3 days (probably mostly water weight anyways) is not what I want for myself anymore. I am so excited to have started juicing, and I can't wait to incorporate it into eating clean!

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